Finally got my self back to watching taiwan series. That’s what I love about movie series, especially singapore and taiwan. In a way, it somehow reminds me of who I should be and what I’ve changed into. A few second ago, I watched this outdated movie where I’ve missed during my studying times in Miri.
I don’t know how I shall relate this to my emotions really as I personally has doubts about myself. This moment I can be really happy, and next, my emotions stirs. There seemed to be that, I left this mark in me. This wound that I stepped on and over and heavy loaded the unexplained. Don’t you just hate it that you ought to analyze every single step you take? What’s gonna happen if I do this, what if I haven’t done so? Will it make a difference? Or was I meant to make that mistake?
This week it is, I got back up on track, and within this period I stumbled upon my own thoughts. I’ve had people telling me I’ve got a bad temper and yes I do realize that’s my bad habit. I do not seem to know how to control and usually accidentally raise my voice a little way above what’s should. But have u ever wonder what got me all this way? First, I do not have enough sleep, all the thoughts in my mind keeps screaming to me everyday and when pressure hits, there. It’s burst. Or it could be I am just bad tempered and needs a to deal with a phychiatrist.
Earlier on this year, I managed pretty well and there’s always this moment where I breakdown, hard. It could be just anything. Work management stress, peer pressure, personal relationships etc. Mine, since I’m that poor in managing my thoughts, these all tend to accumulate and thus emotionally taken over. Last night I had this conversation with this 29 year old lady. She seemed to be going across hardship in life, its all about settling down and constructing communication. Sometimes we just do not understand what’s expected and we tend to either be influence in what other people wants us to do, or simply just limit ourselves from broadening our thoughts. I mean everyone does has the right to think right? We share experiences but its never a good quote to present, “Well, mine’s worst, you’re young you won’t understand“. Now, dont misunderstand, this talk between us is about the issue, nothing inflicting us both. We’re both analyzing certain things, certain stage in life and end up realizing how theyre different characters of people and how we tend to encounter almost similar experiences in life except ofcourse differ the fact that we all live with different people, the friends we make, etc.
